Friday Morning Ramblings...

Having faith. What is faith? I heard once that 'Faith' could be described as flying through the air on a high-flying trapeze, and letting go of one bar before you can see the next one coming. Either you are going to catch the bar, or you are going to fall. And a person who has faith, knows that the safety next will catch them anyway, so why not enjoy the ride?

This week, I took a leap of faith into the unknown. I finally let go of a desired outcome, and have been flabbergasted at what the 'unknown' has brought to me. I have faith that I shall be restored to my once again shiny, vibrant, happy vibration. Hence the journey of life. I suppose I would be considered an eternal 'optimist'. Even when I am struggling and am challenged, I am constantly looking for how I can better myself from the situation. Life happens, and we either become 'bitter', or we become 'better'. Everyone goes through tough stuff, and at some point I just had to say to myself 'so what'? So what that happened? Yes, it was hard, and sad, and painful, and in this moment... what can I do to move towards creating something better?

It doesn't serve me to focus on being victimized by life, even though it is really easy to live in finger pointing, or self-blame, or feeling righteous about all those other unconscious boo-boo's in the world. Because the truth is, I have zero control over others, or what has happened in the past. I only have so much vital life force, so why not put that energy towards the things I can change. I love the 'Serenity Prayer', because it anchors me to this...

Universe, grant me the Serenity,
To accept the things I cannot change,
Courage to change the things I can,
AND the wisdom to know the difference.

I think I lost my faith for a while. I lost my 'knowings' that the universe has a safety net for me, even if I 'fall'. I am still here, and I am still optimistic. I am STILL loving.

Despite all the chaos whirling on around me. I am still here choosing to love.

I have faith in love. I believe in love.

I must have compassion for those who can't give me what I need. I must forgive them, and love them. It's okay for me to set boundaries, to say, "I won't lose myself just to be with you," It's also okay for me to love those people who have closed hearts, and to honour them for where they are at in there journey.

In other words, I love him... and yet, I love me more. I have faith that by loving myself first, I will be vibrant, radiant, full. When I am chock-full of love, I'll then able to love others extensively, thus spilling my light and love reaching out to the world.

... As I was about to post this, I got a call... I GOT THE JOB! Faith without works is dead... this really has been an incredibly moving week.