Almost a year since my last post! Interesting how quickly life can be experienced! I'm moved to write here again.I've been at the same job for a year and half, and find myself quite at peace with the routine of my life. Aside from a recent daycare transfer that has Bodhi quite upset, for the most part, I am resigned to admit I've begun to feel the serenity that consistency that I was so desperately longing to feel this time last year.
I'm coming up to nine months clean and sober, and I'm absolutely amazed at how GOOOOOOD I feel. Words just can't seem to express how deeply grateful I am to not have that shit storm of negative thoughts clouding my judgement. I am simply a happier person when I'm not triggering the addict thought patterns that are still present in my mind.
It's Sunday night. I'm nervous about the daycare drop off tomorrow. Last Friday it took me a half hour to get Bodhi just into the front doors of the daycare. He kept running away.. poor lil man. Change is so tough for kids when their three years old. I've been attempting affirmations, reassurance, NLP anchoring good thoughts about his new daycare... guess I'll find out tomorrow.. Had to spend a ton of time this weekend soothing, and reassuring. My boss thinks I'm too much of a marshmallow with my boy.. I think I'm an awesome Mom.
