My Lover - My Family

My family.


Connection.

Belonging.

I read books about Indian families, where there are dozens of relatives to help support one another, guide one another, love one another.


Granted, with more family come the potential for more disfunction, and drama. Perhaps it is human nature to want what we don't have...

Though my family is small, we are strong. I do long for a relationship, a partner, a friend in this journey of life. I hate admitting that out loud, because I judge myself as weak and vulnerable for wanting that.

But I know that is just my ego. When my heart is open I can feel how strong my desire is for a relationship, a strong connection with another is. I know that I am 'fine' on my own. I give this task to the universe...

I trust that my family will grow in perfect divine time, and all is well.

I love my partner now, even though he is not in my life at the moment, even though I may not have met him yet. I trust.