A Perfect Bodhi day!

What a fun day!

Even though both my son and I are struggling with 'Booger Noses', we managed to have a most excellent adventure today!

After snuggling and watching cartoons all morning, I managed to get both him and myself down for a nap. When he woke up, I took him to 'Apple Bee's'! Once there, we had a fun time eating, looking at all the pics, and colouring! We even danced to the awesome applebee's tunes! Bodhi insisted I play the drums and the piano.. too fun! I allowed myself a Cheesecake shooter! YUM! I fully appreciated it! Bodhi wasn't as thrilled about his jello, and he decided it would be more fun to dump it on the chair.. I think he did it by accident tho, cause he sweetly said, 'uh oh Mummy, big accident on the chair!' Awww.. then he helped me clean it up!

After that we went to get Halloween Crafts, a yellow 'horse balloon' with a black ribbon, and a good long play session with 'Thomas the Train'! We stopped to colour Josie (his daycare mommy) a picture, and we played with Summer and another little girl. (Girls are so cool).

Bodhi left Thomas the Train peacefully, and with a smile (Thank-god). Came home and had AppleBees leftovers for supper, and Bodhi and I made Halloween cutouts for the window while we listened to 'Mickey Mouse Music'. The front window now has evil witches, scary kitties, brown, black, purple, pink, and green bats, and birds all over it! Bodhi kept saying, 'Very scary window Mommy'! Ha, I love it!

Ended our day with Bathtime, snuggle, read books, and Bedtime songs!

What an absolutley perfect day with my boy!

Reunions...

This was a piece taken from my Blog; "April 20, 2009...



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Today after my bath with Bodhi, we were doing our usual sing-song routine, and baby massage time. He was laughing and playing around as usual, and we ended with our typical ‘Look into the mirror and wave hello or blow kisses’ routine....

But this time.. his eyes caught mine in the mirror.. and he began to squeal and giggle with delight. This little boy was so joyful at the sight if himself and his mommy! He began to laugh and laugh and giggle, and he looked up at me as if to say.. ‘Yaay Mommy! We are together again! We’ve waited so long to be reunited in human form, and here we are.. whoo hooo LET’S PARTY!’

So I looked back and him and started to giggle as loud as I could back, and hollared. ‘YAAAAAAAAAAAYYYYYY̵
7;!! and he joined in with a great big ‘YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAYYYY
YYYY’!!

Then this huge surge of love swept through my body, as I cherished our little moment. This moment of realization. That we had been separated for quite a long time, and our souls are truly over-joyed for the opportunity to experience the human journey together once again.

It’s going to be quite a ride lil’ man… hang on, cause it’s going to be a blast! Bodhi & Mommy!

Thank-you Bodhi, for your laughter and your smile. Thank-you for finding me again.

I love you. I love myself.

And so it is!

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I am so grateful for my son, he has grown into such a wonderful joy! What a sweety!

The Art of Allowing

It has been three months since my last post. I feel like a school girl having to go to confession! Not that I have ever been to confession... but I imagine that this is what it would feel like!

It seems that the universe is once again providing me with many opportunities to embrace and love myself, and to laugh at the absurd nature of my humanity.

I am once again unemployed, it seems that the oil industry wasn't really a home for this peace loving hippy girl. I am not surprised, and I am trusting that my guides are directing me to the place I need to be. It is humbling, and it is thrilling to know that I am being guided and directed.

So, it seems that I am back to sharing my voice, rather than trying to silence it, squash it, and mold myself into a tiny little box that just doesn't contain me.

This day is my day to surrender to the current of life, and let go with reckless abandon! What can I create today? How can I bring my heart, and joy, while showing up for others? What an adventure this day shall bring!

Today I embrace the gifts you are bringing to me, I accept them fully and allow love to land!

Mahalo universe!

I adore you, thank-you for looking after me.

A Mother's Love

Yesterday was an interesting day. I got my little boy into a good daycare here in Red Deer. As of next week, I will no longer be a 'stay-at-home' Mom!

I have to be truthful, and share that I am seriously grieving this. It is great that I am going back to work, and it'll be awesome for him to make new friends, and get to play a lot. I just really CHERISHED my time with him.

Despite all that has happened over the past 2 years, I do not regret taking time out of my life this past year to be home with him. I have let go of my 'status' in the workplace, and the material gains from working, so that I could be 'present' for my child. The bond that we've created is indescribable. I never knew I could love this BIG and this HUGE. I am actually at a loss for words right now, with my attempt to describe how much I love this child.

Since I've become a Mom, I have experienced an interesting transformation. I have been able to see everyone as some one's child, a child who is loved by someone just as much. I find myself wanting to love those who do not have that type of love in their lives. It is this type of love that could transform the world.

Another step in the journey, another opportunity to see the impermanence of life. I suppose it will be like this his whole life, constantly 'letting go', and letting him grow up. He is not mine. I do not own him. He is on his own journey, and I am here to protect him while he's vulnerable and teach him how to be a loving, independent, contributing individual. I am blessed to be a part of his journey. I am happy he chose me to be his Mother.

I just wish my heart didn't ache so much at the thought of not spending time with him everyday. My humanity has the better of me today. I will turn this over to the universe to manage. I release it, I surrender it.

And so it is.

Welcome to my Life!

The day has begun, I feel the stirrings of the house coming alive below me. I slowly open my eyes, and am reminded of how many gifts I have.

Welcome to my life!

A goofy grin spreads across my face, and I’m saturated with joy. I am still amazed at the surprises life brings my way. What goodness comes when I surrender to the flow of the stream.

This is my life. I am staggered by my own perceptions. When I yield my fears, and leap into the excellence of life, I can’t help but feel anything other than exhilaration. I’m so pleased I am here in this life. Despite the fears and the hurts and the traumas…

I love humanity, and everything we go through on a daily basis to not only survive, but to re-create ourselves in the next grandest story.

Today I have a feeling that the greatness that awaits me downstream is nothing less than spectacular… and you know what?

I deserve it.

And so it is!

The Gift of a Rainbow

Last night, as I allowed myself to slip into the calm comforting silence found only in the country, I found myself settling into a deep emotion of reverence. What a beautiful experience this life is. Even as I sit here, I am aware of the wind caressing my skin, and the of trees dancing playfully. I want to take it all in. Every single moment.

As I busy myself with the days, I find myself incredibly grateful when I have those 'chime bell' moments, where I am pulled back to the present. Those moments where my mind is silent and I land in the vastness of eternal bliss. Even if they are brief moments, they anchor me to something beyond the business of my mind.

Whenever I see rainbows, I am always catapulted into this state of being. The little girl in me is always mystified by the magic and beauty of a rainbow. Last night, I received the gift of a rainbow. Like Dorothy from the Wizard of Oz, I too dream of a place somewhere over the rainbow. I imagine a place where deceased loved ones live, and where future earth angels reside.

My heart is full with the beauty of a rainbow.

Much love.

The Smile Experiment

Smiles are such a wonderful gift, and a beautiful way to 'make a difference'. Some days, I like to experiment with the smile. When I am walking down the street, I will consciously make eye contact with people and smile at them. I am always amazed at the transformation that occurs. Most people will instantaneously smile back, and energetically it is almost as though they stand a little straighter!

Sometimes, when I smile at someone they will give me a dirty look. This also amuses me. I wonder what belief has just been fired off for them, and how long will they ponder, "why the heck was that woman smiling at me?"

I love to offer smiles with no attachment from the receiver of the smile.

The transformation that occurs within myself is pretty cool also. Before I know it, I am smiling for no real good reason at all.

Another favorite of mine is the salute smile, this is the smile I give to the elderly. I two finger to the forehead smile along with a 'top of the morning'! I always get a ferocious grin in response, and I love sending people my respect.

Last night on my run, I nodded and smile at several teenagers riding past me on skateboards. I got the peace sign, a nod in return, a 'hey hey hey', and the last one (who was smoking a cigar) gave me a toothy grin.

I'm grateful I was open to the moment and was able to make a connection to people I might have otherwise 'judged'.

I love it when my mind is out of the way, and I can come from love. The exercise of 'smiling' at people is one that will quickly elevate my vibration, not to mention IT IS SO MUCH FUN!

So, if you are reading this, then I challenge you to make eye contact, and share your smile with at least 10 strangers today. Just for fun, and just because you can!

Great love is often found in the little of actions. - Mother Theresa